Heaviness

I don’t consider myself an alarmist. I generally operate on a pretty even keel. Don’t get me wrong, I can get as crazed and stressed as the next person, but my strong logical side often enables me to maintain composure.

But holy shit and my freakin Oh My God!! What the hell is going on with the world? I have friends who truly believe there’s a good chance 2012 will bring a major shift to our universe. And sometimes it’s difficult not to believe a smidgen of those who preach about the apocolypse. Because it seems that heavy, horrific shit is coming down all around us.

I can’t watch these horrifying videos of Japan being swallowed by waves after being pounded by an enormous earthquake. And that only seems to have taken time off the never-ending horror of devastation and killing in Libya and Afghanistan and all the other places in the Middle East. Oh, and don’t forget the horror of the numerous African crises and the animals and people who are still struggling from the massive Gulf oil spill. There are many life-shattering events I am leaving out.

Fortunately and with hopeful ignorance, I can change the channel or close the Internet window or turn my head from the conversation. Because I cannot manage to hold on to all of this while keeping hopeful about the world. And I try so very hard to do that.

After a weekend of seemingly never-ending new images and a morning of checking news coverage, I’m a bit bogged down in it right now. I will be able to move past it soon, unlike so many other suffering people. But somedays, the world seems like such a very, very sad place. I look forward to the stories I’m sure we’ll hear soon (hopefully) about the tremendous heros and valiant people who will do more than their fair share to help and save others. Thank goodness for them.